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captainhornblower) wrote2020-01-01 09:10 pm
captainhornblower) wrote2020-01-01 09:10 pm
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luceti] - Appointments
Messages and meetings for Cpt. Horatio Hornblower.
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[she can be firm on that. She's heard how Archie speaks of the Navy. She's heard how he speaks of Horatio. The two are worlds apart]
The Navy is part of you, but you are more. The Navy couldn't see past the surface to notice what he will be later. You could. And still do.
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One or the other.
He sighs.] I just... I don't want to fail him-- Archie. I'd never forgive myself.
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[there's another pause. She refuses to just write off his fears as baseless, even if she has faith in him. She knows how powerful doubt can be]
Why do you think you'll fail him? How would you?
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A thousand fears swam in his mind.
He'd changed. At nineteen, there had been no secrets. What couldn't be said was still known. Archie had laid everything before him, and Horatio had taken it in stride, as he knew he had to.
But now... He'd refused to tell Archie things at twenty-five. He'd evaded a direct question. He'd lied to him here, now, too. And if Archie ever found out... What would he think? Try as he might to tell himself he hadn't technically lied, Horatio knew better. He'd given Archie every reason to think that, in his world, Archie was his first lieutenant. He hadn't told him his fate. ...He'd just wanted to see him smile, if only for a moment.
Only a few words would come.]
He... needed me then. Or. At least. Needed someone. And I suppose I did the job well enough.
But I'm not that man now. I don't think I can do what he did.
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[watching him for a moment, Jilly considers him before moving to perch on the arm of the nearby couch.] Helping someone through so much...it takes patience that very few people have. Which is alright. It's why, most times, you need a network of people around you to keep you upright. Otherwise, it's too big a burden for one person to bear.
But sometimes there are those people who just...carry you. [it had been Angel for her. Horatio for Archie] You carried him. That's beyond jobs and minimums.
[she crossed her arms over her chest] Maybe it'll be too much to do it on your own a second time. And, really, maybe that's a good thing. Because getting help might be good for both of you. But I think you aren't giving yourself enough credit.