Second Dispatch - [written]

[captainhornblower]

Monday, 16th May, 18

I have recently been given to thought about the [a pause in the writing as he considers his wording] conflict between this place and the [another considerable pause] worlds we come from.

How does one balance the two? I understand some have been away from their proper homes for some time. Surely some of you left behind obligations. How do you reconcile the need to return to them with your presence here? Do you somehow put them out of mind? Do you merely accept you cannot fulfill them until you return? I find the matter trying my conscience sorely.

I would appreciate any counsel on the matter.

Hornblower

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[ written ] It happens!

[captainhornblower]

I [he paused for a long time] wish I could just know that they're all okay. Especially

It's difficult. I promised to take care of a lot of people, and now I'm in a position where I cannot.

[ written ] aaaaaaaand now i'm just the latest ever.

[tothelibrary.livejournal.com]

Try and think of it this way: they're... like a picture, right now. Or a movie on pause. When you go home, they'll be exactly where you left them. You can't disappoint people who don't know you're gone, right?

Re: [ written ] I've been failing with tagging lately, so... no! Not the latest!

[captainhornblower]

I [another pause, he's used to just writing whatever comes to mind, but here he has to stop himself, concious that there are no second drafts] suppose they would never know if I disappointed them, but I can still disappoint.

[ written ] i am PRESIDENT of the fail!tagging club, sob.

[tothelibrary.livejournal.com]

I know that feeling. But. As much as this place can be awful, think about it this way: we have chances here. To see people we can't anymore, back home. The hope of that is-- [ a pause here, like dawn's trying to measure how much of herself to give out. ] Sometimes, you have to just swallow the bitter pill parts and enjoy the parts that aren't awful.