Well...there were the places I worked. The shelter can get more volunteers and so can the hospice...but there are never really enough to go around. And there are kids I work with every day...sometimes you're the only face they know they can rely on. Just disappearing...I couldn't do that to them. [she couldn't just be another person in a long line of abandonments]

And my friends, too. I...don't know what they'd think if I was really just...gone.

[it's a serious concern for her. Six years ago another bit of magic had made it so she'd heard exactly what they would have thought...learned the very doubts they would have if she gave up and walked away. She's not quite sure she's proven herself enough to move beyond that, yet.]